I never liked going back to school, but I did love the school shopping: specifically when it involved office supplies.
While I might not have been ecstatic about having to sludge behind the actual work of everything school entails, I did enjoy the sense of a new beginning. It was always a chance to make my way through first impressions and day planners. I had already blown through the semblance of new year’s plans and would be getting bored with how my year was panning out.
Now, I’m a bit older and no longer have these start-of-school-year’s to use as an excuse to revamp myself. This gives me one less excuse to try forcing myself to make promises revolving around my narcissistic betterment. It was a vain attempt to erase the version of me I had been living with up until that point.
But since I am on a path to constantly enhance my current state of being while enjoying the moment, I’ve taken a new perspective on all of these chances at “new me’s”.
I try to think about it as an update. Computer software needs updated every once in a while. And if virtual reality mimics reality, why can’t we upgrade ourselves as needed?
I’m trying to steer clear of words such as “improvement” and “modify”. Even “resolution” seems insultingly dramatic. These words suggest I’m not satisfied with where I currently am. And for once, I can say I am happy with who I am and where I am going. But it doesn’t hurt to maximize my current capabilities!
Over the last couple of months, I’ve picked up the habit of examining how the month went as a whole. What were activities I was able to accomplish? What did I punish myself through doing? Are there any patterns here I should notice?
Sure, certain situations can be circumstantial. But over all I have found this a good way to examine where I’m at both mentally and physically.
My point is this: don’t feel like you need the excuse of the start of a school year to update how you’re living. Feel free to live every day as that new beginning you’re waiting for.